mahirap tumawa mag isa. haha! nanuod ka ng movie dati may kasama ka tumawa for some certain scenes and may pwede ka mayaya almost anytime pag may gusto ka movie. ngayon minsan nalang at yung minsan na yun ikaw pa mag isa tatawa. hahaha! nakakatawa...

Just a thought

i have a thought. i think that maybe it is best to give when you are giving your little extra, that little something extra you have. i mean that when you are rich you have a lot of excess money so it's not too hard to give to charity or other institution unlike when you are a normal people who just have a little extra for themselves but instead of using that little extra for themselves they give to charity or other poor people. Because i think that when you don't have a lot of excess money it's hard for you to give but when you do give it shows how you really want to give, and shows how much of a big heart you have. I'm not saying that those rich people are not sincere with their giving to charity. everything i said was just my thought i'm not saying they are correct.

new year, new life

it was my first ever Christmas here in reno and it was quite good for some reason. i got a lot of gifts and all of it was mostly clothing for winter because it is winter here and it's quite cold but tolerable. it hasn't snow for the past few weeks but i still consider this as my first ever white Christmas. not too much snow this season yet, but maybe in the next few months. over all it was all good.

everything is changing in my life except for the fact that my mom is still so annoying. she keeps telling me how lazy i am even though i am working so much to do most of the house work. i mean i should at least get some credit for what i do but instead she just keeps on yapping to me on how my ways in the philippines is not gonna work here, but men i changed my ways so much. credit please! my god! i can't believe her and i don't try to argue to her about what i feel because she won't listen to it. She always thinks she is right in everything which is not and gets so fuckin annoying. i mean yeah they might be the older ones but geez! when you're wrong admit it for a change and for crying out loud, but i guess adults will never change cause they will never listen to kids because they are always right and the kids are always wrong. i mean yeah maybe not all the time but MOST of the time they do.

ebilnes

for once i actually think i'm being punished by God for all my evil deeds. i sorta got some skin allergy or something. its like my skin is being pinned by a needle and gets all itchy, men it feels like hell. i cannot believe this is happening to me, i mean i don't deserve this its killing me. even for those evil deeds haha! it just like sorta happens everyday at some point. i don't know what the hell is causing it and man i wish it stops. christmas is coming so that's why it needs to stop or better yet i need to see a doctor or something. haha! and speaking of christmas, i cannot feel the spirit of it and with less than a month to go. i mean when i was in the philippines, i can feel the spirit of christmas way in the month of september. oh well i would just have to live with this. there is nothing i can do anyway, and whining about it won't really help.

friends

i just had a long phone call from my friends which was really nice. it reminded me of the good times when i was still in the philippines. they're still doing the same old things but just without me. it seems they are good, and will continue to improve their lives. hopefuly we'll meet again someday and do our stuffs again once more. i mean i could not ask for better friends than them because i know they are the best i could ever have. the good times will come again in the near future. pray for the best in life.

unfortunately

i didn't make it in the try out. oh well i wasn't expecting anything from the beggining anyway. the try out was bad for me because i really wasn't able to show what i can do due to lack of preparation that leads to my legs unable to cope up with me and the same goes with my stamina. but i can only blame myself in that. i took things for granted. actually i wasn't expecting that my legs would fail me but it happened and i coudn't do anything which was quite dissapointing. but overall i enjoyed it even though i performed poorly. i will definetely try again if given the chance. i really do hope i do get another chance to tryout for any team cause i really want to play. but as for now i can only reflect on my mistakes so that the next time i can really put up a challenge. no regrets but only myselft to blame for failing. that is all there is to it.

try out

today i had my try out for a football/soccer club. i know i didn't do good because it's like my stamina can't cope up because i really wasn't in shape to play but even though i almost died. i withstood the 2 1/2 hour of it with no water because my mom went somewhere with my water. i know i can get in the team if i'm in good shape and if i try really really hard, i'm not quitting, i'm gonna give myself another chance even if its slim. but even if i won't make it, it's perfectly fine because i enjoyed it somehow. it was fun the americans are nice but not too much with the mexicans. there is a second try out at saturday. and there is still 2 days to at least prepare even more. i'm gonna try as hard in the last 2 days so i can at least get enough stamina to play good. i don't know if the 2 days jog to death can make a lot of difference but i know any difference is good than nothing at all.