Desperately trying to speak the words i've been wanting to say for a long time

the sadness keeps drowning my fragile heart, its like a good dream but when the conversation with my friends ends so as my good dream. it takes me back to the reality that I'm alone. no one can ever deny that fact even if you say its not because you're so far away to even say that. so most probably it will just become a lie even though how much you wanted it to become the truth. and so the sadness continues...