idiots

putangina sana mamatay na lahat ng nagpapahirap sa buhay ko. nakaka bwistet kasi pinapahirap ng mga tanginang mga tao ang aking napaksimpleng buhay, ginagawa nila itong komplikado para sakin, katulad nalang ng aking putanginang tiyuhin na ginastos ang aking dapat na alawans na 2500 putangina talaga, e dapat pang gastos ko un pambli ng load sa cellphone at sa RO, at panggastos kasi pupunta kaming ust, e kaso putangina ginastos nya nga kaya nkakabwiset mag iisip pa tuloy ako kung pano ako magkakapera bukas kasi 50 nlng pera ko putangina talaga imbis na maganda tulog ko ngaun masama tuloy at dahil sa ka tanginahang ginawa nya mag aantay tuloy ako hanggang baka sa friday para magka alawans ulet putangina talaga sinong matutuwa nun lalo na kapag na delay pa at next week ko pa makuha edi mas lalo akong mabubwiset dahil sa kaputanginahan nya!!! (sorry for the foul words it's just so goddamn frustrating, on second thought. it's a rant so might as well use foul words to ease my fucking frustration)

secluded

I'm not feeling too nice about my surrounding, i mean for once i wanted to be separated from all the people. i want to stay in a secluded island far away from everyone. I'm getting sick and tired of trying to comprehend with everyone. and I'm getting too paranoid with everything that is going in my life. it's killing me, i hate it so much and as much as possible like I've said i wanted to be alone for a while, stay in a secluded island or a somewhat dream world where only i exist. so i can look on what has happened to me for the past months, recall myself and put back together a part of me that is lost. but maybe, just maybe it was already lost forever? but then again someone can bring it back...

"Someday i know for sure paranoia is gonna kill me, one way or the other."

facedown

it's gonna be over soon because i'm gonna be gone for good but there is still one real question in my head. Will people miss me? hehe most probably not, no one could care less about me going anyway. they will just eventually forget about me and by the time i will take my vacation no one knows me anymore, sadly but that is the truth. like a bad memory simply forgotten so easily.

dull night

"I can only try to do as much. and sadly it won't ever be enough to sooth the unending sadness within. Hope is nothing more than a word for it doesn't have any essence of which can ease the sadness. time is not on my side, it never was. and pretty soon time will run out and everything good i have with it."

annoying

geez for the past 3-4 months people have been asking when will i go to the states. And fuck i'm sick of their fucking questions. why the hell can't they just wait for me to be gone dammit. i'm sick of answering that patheticness. i mean why the hell do i have to answer it all the time? they won't even be affected when i'm gone anyway. stupid people, idiot people. tss

waiting

this sucks because for quite some time now i'm always waiting for something, for those somethings to fall into their rightful places. and i'm getting tired of it. i'm getting sick of the endless waiting. it's like after waiting i get to wait again for something. i hope it ends soon.

cerulean sky

"I can see it all too clearly now, the serene blue sky. the only thing that we'll be able to share. the only thing we're bound to see together in distance. And hopefully someday we'll be able to share it close to each other in some place great."

fine day dumbass

today i met with my old skulmate kate aka joji(what a lame gay alias) im gonna continue tomorrow wenk!