life, it won't ever be good enough

i was thinking considerably the benefits of being in college and not going back to high school. i mean it's not really that bad to go back at least i can still play futbol but it seems i can't. i will be in college soon and there will be no more futbol i guess. i mean it's so hard to let go of playing futbol but i have to, it's totally gudbye for the sport. there's no other chance to play rather than in school for me. i guess that's the way it's gonna end and i won't be able to do anything about it. like some saying in a disney cartoon. "sometimes bad things happen and you won't be able to do anything about it." i guess i kinda expected too much. oh well that's life and you can never be too happy.

twilight

"My life is adrift wandering around aimlessly in this god forsaken place, full of confusion and thoughts. it's not good but not too bad at all, i guess that it's just stuck at this point in time where there is nowhere to go."

3-kowalski

naalala ko nung 3rd year tapos english class, kasi after examination so kailangan namin gumawa ng evaluation dun sa teacher and sa subject so un kuha kami 1/4 piece of paper. then kasama ko si vino at si corn bali tatlo kami so un natripan namin na gaguhin ung evaluation kasi hindi naman kailangan ng pangalan so hindi kami malalaman. so un kuha kami mga 2 pcs of paper each at nilagay namin dun mga stuff about cellular providers like ung sa globe "connecting people" tas sa smart "simply amazing" tapos madami pa kami nilagay na kagaguhan mga quotes na di ko na maalala, so un pinasa tapos binasa nung teacher haha!! taena pasimple pa kaming walang alam sa ginawa tawang tawa kami nung binabasa nung teacher kasi kunwari wala kaming alam nakikitawa lang kami sa mga kaklase para painosente effect, hahaha!! so un ginawa ata namin un for 2 quarters except nung 4th year kasi si doombringer na teacher eh, baka madoom kami, hahahah!!!!

hiphap

my mom can sometimes get pretty annoying, she has one sided biased opinion on fashion. and that is hiphap and loose clothing my goodness, she keeps on telling me how cool to wear loose clothing and how gay it is to wear semi-fit jeans and clothes. it's quite annoying really because there is not in a million chance that i would wear loose clothing. and man he pestered me with my haircut because she thinks it sucks, like duh! i preffer long hair rather than the shorty gay hair. oh well i won't succumb to her beliefs.

stak ap!

"it's like hitting the reset button and starting all over again."

pota nakakburat ang pagdating ko dito sa reno kasi taena disyerto nakakatamad miski maganda bahay namin la nmn lock kwarto wala din saysay hahaha!! tapos daming sibak at chicanong gangster na mukang mga hoodlum amp! buti nlng di kami sa ghetto neighborhood kung hindi patay kasi magulo! at wala pa kami sa downtown kaya mejo nakakatamd pero ok lng kaso mga bugok kapitbahay namin kasi hindi lumalabas amp! at ang lamig pa ng bahay kasi may aircon na centralized tapos hindi ko pa alam pano i edit ung temp. pero ayos na din sa ngaun, kelangan ko ng lakas ng loob para maka go through in this stage of my fuckin life. hindi kasi ganun ka-ok eh parang mas maganda pa din kung sa pilipinas ako titira or some other state na maayos barok kasi dito disyerto at parang onti ng population kaya panget kasi gusto ko sa madaming tao para mejo nakakutwa naman. un mejo stak ap buhay ko at utak walang direction sa ngaun. daming stuff na complicated like my haircut and the way i dress. sana hindi nalang ako kontrahin ng nanay ko, mejo wala din pala ganong freedom. kala ko matutuwa ako pero sa ngaun hindi kasi parang nasa paranyake lang ako sa mga tita ko sa pilipinas boring, kala ko nga magiging interesting life ko eh pero sa ngaun hindi pa din eh pero sana soon. :D