losing it

I've slowly became the person I've despised oh so much throughout my life. The lying, indecisive, hateful and pretentious scumbag that I didn't want to become. I don't know how it came to this, and seriously I'm having serious doubts whether I will be able to remedy this situation. I'm coming to a point where I don't know how to deal with it anymore other than live with it, and see whether I can revert back to my old self. I never expected myself to regress this bad, and at this point in time too because it certainly does not help the cause. In due time I hope things get better, for my sake.